out with the old.

GREETINGS BLOGSPOTTERS,

i took a year-long vacation. mostly because i am still very much a gyspy in this city and because i never had the time to write anything worthy of reading.

so much had changed since i last posted. i was talking to a friend in my school today, going over the highs and lows of new york. it's funny how a city with so many people can seem SO lonely sometimes. don't get me wrong, i still love new york with all my being, but it can take you down so many different roads in so little time.
i feel so much more grown than i was when i got here two years ago(HOLY TWO YEARS BATMAN)! but i think i've only become more aware and insightful to the way i want my life to travel. i've realized that choices are the only thing that matters. time is only an aid in achieveing happiness, and just "doing you" for the rest of your life will leave you with only you at the end of the day.

from the day i got to new york, people have told me that i'm too generous, or genuine, or too quick to forgive. in many ways, they're right. in more ways though, i feel that people set standards for themselves. obviously we're all in it for the money, fame, cars and clothes at some point in our lives, but it's important to think about the story you'll have at the end of your life. cars and clothes don't make for very good memories. making money only matters if you have someone to share it with. and fame is moreso now than ever, a game of spite. without friends, confidantes, or even someone to love, we don't have much, so give, take, and learn from everyone who passes through.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND LET THE INSIGHTFUL RANT COME TO A CLOSE.

in other news, i'm moving on thursday! eighth time folks. count it! eight!
this one will be good though. it's a nice area, and for once it'll be a home that i won't have to travel to everyday with a gat up my sleeve.

i prom prom to stay on my blogging grind. even if no one's reading my shit.

TOODLES!

go ahead,

SAY IT.

i slacked hard this month and a half ish. i miss blogging. ranting, raving, talking shit.
BACK IN BUISNESS BITCHES.

so much has been going on in my life, im not really sure where to start. i'd compose a list in order of most recent going-ons but the month of june has literally been a big mother of a blur.
i moved. CIAO brooklyn. it was a hell of a move too. i through out literally everything and people were outside my place going through the boxes like little rats. just snatching all my designer duds. i thought i wanted to leave but as soon as i was gone i missed everything about it.
walking miles, chuck, deals, a place to call my own, my bed, even the polskis.
my parents came and hauled ass with me to my room in the city. my dad chirped me the whole time about having too much stuff. i just cried and said he didn't understand the pain of giving up perfectly good hardly worn shoes to people i didn't know.

but here i am! midtown manhattan living with the queen of crazies! like today for instance.. i walk in with tribal church choir music blaring. or the other day, when she told me she'd like to die in india. and they'd hate me in india because i like to be clean.

EXCUSE ME FOR WANTING TO BE HYGENIC. KILL ME.
i'll be out of here in 8 ish days, if not sooner.

i can already tell this summer is gunna be off the chain. fourth of july alone is gonna be nothing short of EPIC.
its already hotter than saaaaauna here and i CANT EVEN WAIT for it to get worse!
i feel like it'll be good for me to be here for the summer. things happen here. people get IT INNNNN.
i also love my friends, and my main squeeze and my life here.
the other day i pounded the pavement and went to like 14 castings. perrrrrrty sure i got the cover of an up and coming art mag in soho. fucking YES. HERE WE GO.
i want this so bad i've decided. i'm not gonna stop until i feel like i've done what i set out to do. new york does that to you. it gives you a large dose of how hard life is and then slaps you in the face until you make something of yourself. im more determined then ever to do something here whether it be bigtime or just not. i want this more than i even thought.

im surrounded by the best people. i have the best friends and people that care about me and i'm beyond fortunate for all of that.

HIATUS=

officially over! one can only stop da blogging for so long!
i find that when i blog at airports my ideas just flow way more smoothly. either that or i'm not constantly competing with shittyass internet like i am in brooklyn!
anywhoozen, i have a shit ton to catch all 11 followers up on! BIG THANGS TO SPEAK ABOOT.

i'm headed to canada, for my birthday, which is on saturday, so get ready to party, whiskey and strongbow style.
last friday night my friendies all threw me a hello kitty themed surprise party! every single thing was hello kitty. I KNOW YOUR JEALOUS.


I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER.

i was so close to tears. honestly, that was the best thing i've ever gotten. just to have all my amigos there, drinking to the point of black-out status, and having to spend 6 hours cleaning my apartment the next day. cor took me to sushi samba before te party and then we went back to my place. they were all crammed in my apartment.
I EVEN GOT A HELLO KITTY DELICIOUS CAKE!

thanks guys. you made my birthday!

all for all the nades, you better own up to your friendship status! TWENTY IS A BIG YEAR.
i kiddddd i kiddddd.

i've been doing a ton of modeling lately which is so exciting. last weekend i did a vogue inspired shoot in long island. we did it in a botanical garden and i pranced around in couture gowns a designer threw me in. needless to say i was in my element. aaaaaaand she gave me a brand new pair of beautiful shoes!
LOVE MY LIFE.

two weeks from now i'm going to boston for a charity fashion show. i get to walk in it and feature in a magazine which is probably the best thing to happen to me in a long time. cor and i are going with danielle and krissssay. it's gonna be a drunken festival, NO DOUBT.
things like this make me hate the fact even more that i'm leaving for the summer. theres so much i need/want/have to be doing here!

i know it was short and sweet but i needed to update!
LEAVING ONNA JET PLANE. SEE YOU IN A HOT MINUTE CANADAAAA!

dear diary;

i need a vacation.
and for it to get hot out! it's supposed to be 85 on saturday. i'm supposed to work a jewellery trade show saturday. just my luck.

operation find a closet for less than 500 bones has begun! i found a place i think. i'm sure it'll be just big enough to sleep standing up and maybe fit a few pairs of shoes. the lady also said i can't have sleepovers which is going to be a big problem. it's not my fault i'm a born cuddler. i need to sleep beside someone, i just do. she's older so she probably thinks i'm going to bring boys home. little does she know i'm over boys and everyone knows boys don't go for gingers.

TWO WEEKS UNTIL I GO HOOOOOME. this time i'm excited! mostly to not remember anything while i'm there! hitting the duty free the second i cross that beautiful border.

i also decided that i owe it to myself to do some serious shopping before i come home. i called my mom today and told her to put my life savings in my account! let the good times roll. it's not like i need anything but i'm sick of budgeting and shopping at deals and target and coupon cutting. i'm sick of it. i feel like i deserve to go a little nuts. AND GO NUTS I WILL.

i'm so excited for summer. not going back to niagara, but for the weather and for all the summer time wonders.
i made a list of things i want to do. this list didn't include sleeping as i feel i need to monitor my free time in the best way possible.
1. campfires! and camping for that matter! there is no better smell than a blazing FIYAA.
2. peaches. i love peaches.
3. drinkdrinkdrink.rumrumrum.
4. rock the bells? perhaps?
5. find a job that allows for me to make bank. in a hurry.
6. start gambling. because really the chino is dope. free beverages, great oxygen flow, and a great place to meet new friends with possible gambling addictions.
7. start running
8. come back to new york for a week and hit up the hamptons. it's how i do.
9. palm bitch? maybe? if the cheddz is in my favor.
10. roadtrip with kynna.
11. cherry pick.
12. have a backyard fiesta!
13. forget the fact that i'm still in school. and still need to be doing work online while basking in sweet summertime.
14. make each and everyone of my friends a t-shirt that best represents our friendship.
15. blog everyday.
16. meet boys that don't treat me like dog's dinner and proceed to have a beautiful summer fling.
17. kick my serious bubblegum addiction.
18. patio it up at every dive bar st. catharines has to offer.
19. swim everyday..in pools that i B& E into. bad to the asssssss.
20. forget the fact that i'm away from my big city princess corrrrboo.
21. find a dope ass new apartment in the city to move into come september.
22. hangout with my mom as much as possible.
23. make my sister hate me less.
24. make a concious effort to not get a 3rd degree burn this year. SPF 32908234098. YESSS.
25. not have a cellphone.
26. cheapgreeeeeeen.
27. grow my hair as long as i can without looking amazonwoman-esque.
28. make ammends with all the people that are haters.
29. tequila.
30. have a 4th of july party! cause why not!
31. FIND WORLD PEACE.

>.<

my throat is starting to tickle. not good, not goooooood. someone needs to get more than 2 1/2 hours of z's! (i say zee now not zed) i also say soda now, not pop.
weird!

AMERICA, FUCK YA.

17 DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY.

it's saturday night,

and it feels so good to be doing absolutely nothing except watch iron chef in my christmas pyjamas.
i woke up this morning trying to figure out what day it was.
TOO. MUCH. ALCOHOL.


lately i've been having really large spurts of bad luck. this includes:
1.losing a twenty.
2.almost twisting my ankle walking on cobblestone in 6 inch heels. (BEWARE LADIES. IT'S AS PAINFUL AS CHILD BIRTH. IM GUESSING)
3.getting a misdemeanor.
4.making my bestfriend pee her pants.
5.attracting every single male pathological liar on planet earth!
siiiiiiiigh.

that's why i hangout with homo's for the most part. they don't bring the drama, they ARE the drama and it's fabulous! i'm so over playing games. none of this would even be a problem if jake gyllenhaul would just date me.

i'm starting a new business. it's called yumyums; a cupcake company! this city is the cupcake capital. soon it'll be an oddity for people to come here to experience new york's pizza or cheesecake, but instead frosted delightful whittle cupcakes! i'm gonna sell them in union square and people are gonna BUY EM. fingers crossed the cops don't catch on because i'm guessing selling food without a permit in short shorts is illegal.
this bitch does not need another fine.

my birthday is in three short weeks which is really putting the pressure on.
every year i stressss the importance of a perfect birthday outfit. i already found the shoes. now the dress.
i went to top shop today for inspiration/another reason to hate the fact that i'm broke.

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO BEAUTIFUL IN THAT STORE?


usually kanye pisses me right off. but this jam is so good.

love santogold.


oh my sweet baby jesus. this is possible the most disgusting thing i have ever seen.
i dunno if this exists in canada, but here in the land of the deepfryer, KFC is selling a chicken sandwich sans a bun.
TWO CHICKEN SLABS with BACON and CHEESE and MAYOOONASTY.
on top of that recipe for cardiac arrest, somebody decided to put it in between a glazed donut.

see below.



why...








this is possibly the most bizarre thing i've ever seen. this dude was standing here for hours with this sign the other day.
CLICK TO ENLARGE
megan, if you're reading this, he learned his lesson aaaand his pride is officially shot to hell.

gettagrip

well don't i wish i went to coachella 2010!
gorillaz, MUSE, LCD soundsystem, de la soul, COOoOoheed, JIGGAMAN.

so beaaaaaauty.

CAN THEY PLEASE PROCREATE ALREADY.

yesterday was such a shitty day;
GURU passed, RIP.
it was 420 and i didn't even light one up aaaaaand i had a crater of a blister all friggan day.
i did find three dollars on the ground though! thank you to whomever bought me a venti! mucho appreciated!

i've decided that after i finished my AA degree in march, i'm going to (attempt) to move to Cali to finish my BA. I've been applying to FIDM, a pretty decent fashion school out in San Fran. With luck i'll get in and be a WEST COAST GAL. i feel like now's my only time to just shoot the shit and move around. i know a few people out there and i think it'd be dope to explore california in all it's sunshine and sandal wearing glory! I figure i'm gonna spend the most, if not the rest of my life working in NYC so why not experience a different place while i'm a youngin'(and my parents are supporting me. teehee)



INCASE A REMINDER IS NECESSARY, BIRTHDAY IS TMINUS 24 BIG ONNNNNES.
i booked my flight for May 12th. so pumped to see all my naders!

hehehehehehe.