technically 2:41 since the clocks went back and i lost a fabulous hour of my fabulous life because of it.
i am sitting in my brrrrrrooooklyn apartment, with christmas lights on wondering whether or not to make a pot of coffee.
i'm deciding not because i'm sure the aroma of hazelnut will wake stacey up. aaaaaand because that'll just shit on any chance of getting any sleep tonight. this girl doesn't do decaf.
i royally screwed up my sleeping schedule after taking nyquils and sleeping until 3 this afternoon.
so for the last hour and 17 minutes i've been lying in my bed listening to the rain pour and thinking.
i think so much. i just sit and think all the time.
for the most part i've been thinking about how much has changed in less than a year. last year i was at some shiteous university which i hated beyond belief. then i left, served quarter chicken dinners for large amounts of time and now i'm in new york city. barely making it, but loving every single thing/person i've experienced/met.
i was so unhappy last year that things could really only get better. when i was 10 i used to tell my best friend jasmin that i'd live in new york. we would sit and play mario kart and eat cereal and talk about our life plans. she wanted to live in ottawa and i wanted manhattan. well! there she is, and here i am. it's kinda cool to think we both ended up where we've always wanted to be.
left: jas and i,spicing up your life!
i am such a little chubby bunny.
another thing i remember from being 10 is watching armageddon. that movie, yooooou know, where the world ends or is gonna get hit by an asteroid or something? and ben afleck (you sexy thing) had the animal crackers on liv tyler's stomach and the he goes to save zee world! and that song don't wanna miss a thing played and OH GOD. so sad.
anywhoozen, after i saw it jasmin's dad told me the world was gonna end in 2000 and i literally didn't sleep for a week. i thought i was toast come the millenium.
HOW NIEVE. here i am! still pluggin'!
sometimes i miss being a kid so much.watching the weekenders and recess and doug! and just riding my bike everywhere and getting slurpees. now i just worry. and wonder where i'm gonna be, what i'm gonna be. who i'm gonna be. i also didn't give two shits about dudes which was probably why my life was so simple. i decided (just now actually) that i need to channel my inner kid. just take things day to day and enjoy what i'm doing right now. there's so many people in my life that are wonderful and have done the greatest things for me. so, for everyone who apart of my life currently, this one goes out to you!
gosh darn it. i am so euphoric right now.
hitting the hay. paaaaaaayce.
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